Reflections on the 2015 A to Z Blogging Challenge
For those who missed my post for 'S' is for Solros-Sunflower, here is one of my sunflower pictures of my daughter, Elisabet, for Tina Downey, that I could not find in time for the 'A Sunflower for Tina'-post:
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The April Challenge was almost too much for me. Sometimes, I regretted signing on. Not because of all of you wonderful people participating, no, because of me. I just did not have enough time to do it as well as all of the things that I should and must do. I needed and need to get my off-line-life in better order.
Being the promise-keeper that I am, I did actually complete the challenge, but it cost me time that I should have used to do other things. So, as I mentioned on my IWSG-post for May, I will restrict my postings to my monthly rants for the Insecure Writer's Support Group. I like writing about one thing, once a month. I am sorry to say that that will be all the blogging I will be able to muster for the foreseeable future.
Having said all of this, I don't want anyone to interpret my comment as a criticism of the A to Z Challenge. It's wonderful! I don't want you to change it. I just cannot keep up with it; at least not right now. I have an ex-husband who will sue me for sole child-custody at the drop of a hat. He has tried to do so twice. And happily for me, he has failed twice. (The latest time that I was in court about this was on 31st March -- the day before the April Challenge!) I let my son move to live with his father last fall, but I am still my son's guardian. My daughter still lives with me thanks to a very good lawyer and a fair judge.
I don't like being divorced. I goes against my grain. I still believe in love, marriage and fidelity. But after 19 years with a tyrant, I just could not take any more. I felt like a prisoner in my own home. No matter what I tried, nothing worked.
So the last four years I have been picking up the pieces of my former life. I know now that I need to focus on fewer tasks and do them better. My children still need me. They are growing up all too quickly.
I don't know about next year's A to Z. I don't want to make promises I may not be able to keep.
But I have no complaints about the A to Z Challenge-team. I am happy for the friends and acquaintances that I have made through this challenge. I'll try to keep in touch.